Old Hallows Eve

So tonight was halloween. A holiday I consider to be nearly perfect. (except for the sluts.)

Chad and I sang a lovely duet of "Baby I'm An Anarchist."

Jake and I discussed coathangers.

Fifer

Today some kid yelled at me, "Hey, your sister called, and she wants her pants back."

I had tight black pants on and my FP jacket zipped up.

So I turned around and keyed his piece of shit truck.

Ha ha.

Evil.

TTVAT pt 14

It's 11.09 local time. That's hb time.
Yeah, I made it home.

I was in Missouri, and there was a screaming baby who did not shut up. It just cried and cried for like 45 minutes during the whole descent.

I saw the big arch thing there as we were flying out, and so now I never need to go back to st louis. It's great how things work out like that.

I'm really tired. I'm dreading school tomorrow. Assassins is coming up this week too. I'm not going to get any sleep this week, or next. Although I am excited that someone is buying blue jeans...

Haha.

I love you guys!

Love
Me.

TTVAT pt 13

It’s 4.28 local time. The plane doesnt leave until 5.30. we’re sitting in the norfolk airport. I bought some lemonade and some sunchips. You know, cause they’re chips of the sun.

This morning we went to Virginia Beach and took pictures at the Atlantic Ocean. We then went to applebees and there was this guy Brandon who my mom said was cute, and I told her that “he knows hes cute” and I had to explain that whole thing. You know, like how a hot girl knows shes hot? You menfolk know what I’m talking aobut? I had to explain that to my mom. Fun stuff right?

Then we went to the airport and we looked at all these stupid things in the airport giftshops that might be buyable if they were like 1/2 the price.Otherwise theyre just stupid stupid. Yes, two stupids.

Something is beeping really loudly, like someone broke into something. I’m thinking its this old lady at the atm. Oh wait, shes not old, shes just old looking. She obviously smokes. Ew. Her face. Old. Southern. Trailer trash. Gross.

Shes gone now.

Everywhere in this airport there are mermaids. Mermaids are like the mascot of the airport. I could buy a mug at the gift shop that says norfolk on it and has a mermaid on it too.

I asked my mom if Norfolk meant something like sea people or ocean people or fin people cause then then its like nor=ocean and folk=people and then all the people who live here are mermaids and mermens.

She said no.

TTVAT pt 12

Today we went to williamsburg and I bought a fife and a declaration of independence. I'm not sure why. But so now I have them. Tomorrow we're getting on the plane at 5.30 local time to go home.

There will be lots of good pictures when I get home. So look for them!

K. Toodles!

TTVAT pt 11

Johnathan is telling me his name is Johnafer. And I thought he said his name was Johnathan and he was telling me it was Jennifer. And so I said:

Me: Jennifer?
John: No Johnifer (I thought he said Jennifer)
Me: Jennifer?
John: No, JOHNnifer.
Me: (stillnot understanding) Jennifer?
John: No. John.
Me: John.
John: say "eff"
Me: Eff.
John: Johnifer.
Me: Johnifer??

So apparently my cousins name is Johnifer.

We played this gnarly version of monopoly where everything is worth like millions of dollars. Theres credit cards that you put in a calculator. It's quite magic.

The Anarchist Story

It's short bear with me.

So before we went to chuck e cheese we went to the army store where they sell all their army clothes and stuff. And I bought a jacket that says army on it (I support the troops not the war so dont hassle me about it) and so i'm standing in line with daniel and theres a bunch of soldiers around buying clothes and what not. And then my phone went off. And do you know what my ringtone is?

It's baby I'm an anarchist.
And I have the chorus. So no matter how fast you are getting a phone out of your pocket, it still will say "...cause baby, i'm an anarchist youre a sp--" and so im spastically turning off the phone and looking weird and now people are like "omg wtf??"

So I gathered my army jacket and daniels like laughing at me, and so I like run out of there.

TTVAT pt 10

It’s 520 local time.

We just got back from costco. Johnathan learned gnarly and tubular. I called Jacob too. Cause I finally had a minute to myself away from everyone. It was nice. Probably the best part of my day.

Now we’re going back to the base to have dinner. I’m really kinda tired, and I saw this guy who looked a lot like Dan from LGBT Lifeworks.

I just found out we’re going to Williamsburg for tonite a little too, as well as tomorrow. Tonite its for like this big witch thing. I’m not sure why, but like.. um... idk. Witches.

Dear Jacob. You’ve got me writing tonite instead of tonight. Silly you.

TTVAT pt 9

its 4.00 local time.

We just went to Chuck E. Cheese, and Johnathan and I went and played skiball. And I taught him how to play.
Then we ran out of coins and he stole my wallet and put a dollar in the machine and got some coins all before I noticed it was there. Crazy.

Ew. He’s licking this harmonica he got and wiping it on my arm. And I said EW GRODY and told him to do it to himself, so he did and he said, “ew grody” just like I did. Which made me laugh and so he’s doing it over again. Now the car is filled with the sounds of “Ew grody. Ew Grody ew grody ew grody ew grody”

We’re going to costco, me and my my mom and suzy and johnjohn. So while we’re in there I’m going to attempt to teach him more slang. Ha ha. Gnarly right?

It stopped raining so hard and now there’s blue skies. Tomorrow we’re going to Williamsburg, the weather permitting.

I also got JohnJohn to like Against Me! And its really funny because I played Thrash Unreal and told him it was bad and hes like “YEAH” and then I played some off of Reinventing and told him it was good and he started dancing. And not like dancing but like jumping around. Like how little kids do.

TTVAT pt 8

“Lord, be my pilot!” my mother just said.

So last night, my mother snored really really really loudly. And so I had my ipod up really loud, and so now I’m going to be even deafer than I was.

We just went to starbucks and my mother made a comment about how conservative everyone dresses. And I was like, Well duh, its cold here, they cant wear booty shorts and tube tops.

We’ve also agreed there are too many damn trees here. Trees are everywhere. I’m going to count the trees for 10 seconds. Every tree I see on the right of the freeway. Every x is a tree okay?
Okay go.
xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

OOMG

I had to stop because theyre playing thrash unreal on the radio! ANd my mom is like whyd you turn it up, and i told her that its against me and she was like omg really? I thot they wernt mainstream enoguh.

Anyways.

Now we’re going to the base. Tonite is chuck e cheese time. If they have a Jurassic Park with the seat that moves all over the place then I’m gonna play forever. I’m gonna rock it. I haven’t played that game in so long you know?

The base is really weird. First of all there are trees everywhere. There’s a railroad that goes right through the middle, and there are no real houses, just lots of appt buildings. I already told you they all have linoleum everywhere in them. There’s lots of grass and stuff, and sometimes you can look and see a big army truck going down the street, or you’ll see a group of soldiers all marching and yelling something. It’s intense. Everywehere you look ther is trash, or a spare tire, and you would expect the army to have a thing to keep it clean, since its the army,

TTVAT pt 7

It's 1021 local time.
After we went to the hotel, Suzie Kimi and Daniel came to pick us up, except Daniel didn't feel good so he didn't come inside. Then Kimi and Daniel went home for a while, and Suzie and me and mommy went to lunch at fudruckers. They had a big boat on the wall.
After that we went to the base. And it's really weird there because theres a hell of a lot of trees everywhere. And so we were inside the house and its tiny small and all the floors are linoleum. Everywhere. Except the stairs, and those are wood. It's government issue, standard.
Then we waited for the busses to drop off Megan and Johnathan. They were making fun of Johnathan beause Suzy dressed him in these really tiny jeans that looked like little girl jeans. So we had to go to the mall. After they were home we went to the mall and bought some jeans for him. And some other clothes. Daniel and Megan and I also went to Spencers (you know, spencers, the shop thats like hot topic except more like sex ish. You know what I'm talking about.) So then they were done with that and we started to leave because we had to go to Walmart. Except it was raining like mad hard, and so we sprinted to the car and suzy followed us but she dropped her purse in the rain and so all her stuff was wet and whatnot.
So we went to walmart, and nothing really special happened there.
Then we went back to the base and had dinner and watched the first half of knocked up.
It was stupid, and I have no intention of watching the end of it.

I've got to tell you that Virginia is the weirdest place on earth! Or maybe its just the East that's weird. Or maybe it's just the people on the base that are weird.

Oh well.

TTVAT pt 6

We just got to the hotel, thanks to my excellent navigational skills. It's awesome. Although, at one point my mom decided to make an executive decision and take a different freeway and get us lost. Not really lost though, just on the wrong freeway.
I will admit that I did miss the street that we were supposed to turn down to get to the hotel, but it wasn't my fault. There's no freaking sidewalks here, and I was amazed at that and so I wasn't looking for the hotel. Big deal though, right? We found it eventually.
So pretty soon we're gonna go up to fort eustice to see kimi and daniel and suzy and johnathan and megan. And hopefully eat. I'm really hungry...

Ill tell you about the flight later,
but i've got to go shower now.

Hugs and kisses.
Me.

TTVAT pt 5

Good morning everyone.
Omg. It’s 5.47 local time. (Still Dallas) That means it 3.48 Hb time. Awesome right?
I’m at DFW (Dallas/Ft Worth) sitting watching the news. I have hot chocolate. It’s pretty yummy.

We were waiting for the shuttle to the airport and it was really cold. Now I’m watching the news and it’s telling me it was 46 degrees. No wonder it was so freaking cold.

There was this guy on the bus who I swear to god I thought was Casey Lee. He looked just like him, but with a different haircut.

Also, we saw the guy who missed his friends wedding again and he got coffee from the same place we did.

The art in here is really weird. It’s like there are giant crystal things right next to me. They look like a small version of the building that houses the line for Superman at six flags. They’re silver and totally out of place.

There were some girls in the shuttle who were complaining about american airlines. They went like this:

Girl 1: Yeah we switched to delta.
Girl 2: Uh huh. (Theyre black, and they totally fit the stereotypical way of saying uh huh)
Girl 1: It was our first time flying and it was awful.
Girl 2: Uh huh.
Girl 1: They’re retarded.
Girl 2: Uh huh retarded.
Girl 1: American airlines is retarded.
Girl 2: Uh huh. Retarded.

The end.

TTVAT pt 4

Howdy everyone!
Yes howdy!
It's 11.44 local time. Local meaning Dallas, Texas!
Thats right you guys. I finally made it to Texas. Our flight was delayed until four, and we didnt get here until 9.30. American Airlines felt bad about making us wait so long (Some guy I was talking to will be missing his friends wedding tomorrow morning because of it) and so they gave us a room to a hotel.
But it couldn't be a good hotel. Of course not. So right now, I'm sitting in a Ramada room. There's funny pink spots on the wall that looks like someone was "whacked" as my mom so eloquently put it.
So after waiting in line to check into the hotel for almost an hour (45 minutes) I stole some candy from them, and then we went to Denny's across the street. I had pankakes. And the guy who missed the wedding was there with some other lady who was going to the same place he was (Atlanta Georgia).

Also fun stuff:
We don't have luggage because they wanted to keep it in a "secure location."
DAMN YOU AMERICAN AIRLINES!!!
(I want my phone charger.)

:(

All in all though, it's pretty cool. Texas is awesome. Although its like 58 degrees outside and all I have are my cutoffs and a light jacket.
My mom and I are sitting listening to "All My Ex's Live In Texas" just because.
Also, it says Welcome to Texas on the inside of the door.
I picked up this brochure for this Gun Range, and it says that I can "Just Show Up and Shoot!" and I can "Try Renting a Full-Auto Sub Machine Gun"
Anyone interested?
214.630.4866



Love from the road,
Me

TTVAT pt 3

Sweet. It's 3.51.

Not leaving till four supposedly.
So we will for sure be staying in Dallas for the night.

Some business man just dropped his phone and now hes looking at it and he sort of looks like he's going to cry. What a loser. If its that important, shouldnt he have taken better care of it? I think so.

TTVAT pt 2

So omg.
Im still at LAX. It's 3.09 pm.
First, there was a problem with the plane, so they switched it, and they said that we would board at 3. Obviously, we did not board at 3. So now it says 3.30, and so we're sitting here. Now we're going to miss the layover in Dallas and so we get to spend the night in TEXAS!
I'm not really sure if I'm excited or not. I mean, cool! Texas! but then at the same time its like, Well, then it causes problems.
Cause then what if the luggage goes on to Norfolk, and I'm stuck in Dallas?

DAMN YOU AMERICAN AIRLINES!

TTVAT pt 1

Hey yous guys.
It's 1:48 pm and I'm sitting in a terminal waiting for a plane. Not the right terminal of course. We're supposed to be at 46A and we're sitting in 43B. Don't ask why.
A lot has happeend in the 45 minutes I've been here.
First, we were walking and my mom pointed at some funny dressed men (I'll draw a picture and show you some other time.) And then I looked left and I didn't watch where I was going and I ran into one of them head on. And I was all oh sorry! and he had a brittish accent and it was AWESOME. (I <3 brits. Theyre awesome.)

The Blood Drive Story special features

At request of a reader (or two...) I will answer the questions that I was asked on the test thing.

Sex Testicle: (Test + Quiz= Testicle)

Q: Are you in good health today?
A: Yes.

Q: Have you had sex with anyone who lived in africa?
A: No.

Q: Have you had gay sex?
A: No.

Q: Have you had sex with a man who had sex with a man in the last 12 months?
A. No?

Q: Have you lived with anyone who had hepatitis?
A: No.

Q: Have you taken any of the following drugs:
-drug for baldness
-drug for prostate enlargement
-drug for short people to get tall (discontinued 5 years before i was even born)
-others
A: No.

The Blood Drive Story

So today was the begining of the blood drive.

Alexis and I signed up for the same time so that we could do it together and not be afraid. So I left my class to go to hers, and I sat outside and I heard Mr. Gilman giving her a hard time about saving lives and donating blood. (Not that his class is all that important anyway, its photo.)
So we went there and they gave us this packet to read about all the stuff that you makes you inellegable to donate. Basically you can't donate blood if:
a) You've taken prostate enlarging drugs.
b) You've visited a hooker, and/or you are a hooker.
Stuff like that.
Anyway, so then they take you behind this curtain and ask when your birthday is and stuff, and then they prick your finger with this thing and put some blood in a machine. Well, I did that, and then the lady said "Oh your blood sugar is a little low." So she gets up to get the head doctor nurse lady to look at it, and I'm sitting there thinking, "oh fuck theyre gonna tell me im diabetic." So they come back and the lady looks at it and says, I'm gonna have to do it again. Which, getting pricked in the finger hurts like a bitch. And I had to have it twice.
Then she leaves, and gives me this computer that I have to click yes or no to silly questions like, "Have I had sex with anyone who lived in africa?" or "Have I had gay sex?" or my personal favorite, "Have I had sex with a man who had sex with a man in the last 12 months?"
So then I finish that and they tell me to go and lie on this big lounge chair, and I see that Alexis (who went for questioning after me, and so did raquel, are already laying down on other lounge chairs. They give me this red ball that I have to squeeze so they can find a vein and so I had fun like, squeezing it. So they stick me with a needle and its pretty gnarly watching the blood pulse (not just flow, but pulse) through the tube and into the bag. So then I start talking to Jordan about college and fashion design and san francisco, and I look over at alexis and shes like got the needle in and theres blood like halfway through but its not going any farther, so they take it out and put a new one in the other arm.
Then I finish pumping blood, and this guy comes over and starts talking to me about how his son took his motorcycle and scratched it but wont own up to doing it while he takes the needle out and what not.
So Im walking over to the table with food and stuff and I look back and theres like 4 people around raquel cause she like almost passed out or what not. Scary stuff I guess.
Anyway, so I was sitting at the table and I had a cute little bottle of water, and Shane Loftis was sitting next to me and he had like 20 bottles lined up and he was drinking them, and some guy was telling him to break 100 (oz that is). So I had water and some cookies and then I saw these cool pins. They say "It's my first time." And thats it. No anything like, "blood drive" or "red cross" or anything. Theyre hilarious.

The End!

Lol and some other stuff.

I'm sorry. I really couldn't help myself.

So today in theater management we were talking about homecoming (why today and not yesterday is anyones guess) and Cassie was telling me about all the slutty people that were like boning each other. (Earlier in the day Brett was telling me about how his friend had a boner at the dance and was basically sticking it up his dates ass. Awkward?) So she's talking about that, and then all the sudden she turns to me and says "Aww you guys were so damn cute."
"Why the hell are we so damn cute?" I asked.
"Cause you guys were all into each other and did that forehead thing and it was cute."

So okay. We're cute I suppose. But why was she staring at us?


Tomorrow is the blood drive! Hooray! 5th period I will be saving lives. I'm sure there will be a good story so look out for it.

Kisses and cumshots,
Me

Title of the Song:

The Asinine Assessments of an Aspiring Cowboy

In the end...

It isn't really about who's right or wrong, it's about who's first to realize that they need to apologize.

It's thursday night, and it's 10:46. I have no one to call and say hello, to just ask what they're up to. I think my laptop is electrically charged (duh) because every time I start typing something, the hairs on my arms stand up.

I had a dream last night that I was living in the runis of an underground bomb shelter with talking cartoon bananas. They thought I was going to eat them and so they beat me to death while bombs rained down from above.

To clarify some things:

I can write whatever I want here, and I don't have to explain it to anyone. That's the beauty of it.

No matter how many people I know, or how many may care, or how many will say "I love you too!" when I tell them that I love them, there is a void. One day I'm going to fill that void, but until then I am always searching.

I was given a little piece of advice today that I'm thinking about now:

"Believe the teachings of a raven."

Also right now, I'm reading the lyrics of "Tonight We're Gonna Give It 35%"

"Dear Jesus, are you listening?

If this is the once chance that really matters, well, don't let me fuck this up."



I love you all.

What a bitch.

So i was trying on dresses that i had around my house seeing which i wanted to wear to homecoming. And I was showing my mom, and she said, "you can wear that dress if you don't eat for like two days."

And she was serious.

You shhhitty bitshch!

Ten things.

1. List 10 things you want to say to 10 different people.
2. Don't list any names.
3. Never mention it again.




1. People are sneaky in so many ways. You can't trust them and you shouldn't. Even the ones you think you can trust most of all will ultimately betray you, even if it's behind your back. So when you finally find out about it, don't be so suprised. You just didn't know until then.

2. I've always wanted that guy friend that was always there for me for anything. That BEST guy friend. You know what I mean? I'm sorry I didn't realize it until now but you really are one of the best people to hang around. Just don't get nervous about silly things. Aren't guys supposed to like boobs? So don't freak out and be embarrassed when girls talk about them.

3. You are the loudest and most obnoxious bitch I know. God. Shut up. Every day you're standing there talking to a slightly less obnoxious bitch and then she'll say something funny and you'll laugh really fucking loud. You know the song that goes "laughing so loud that all the little people stare" ? Well, I stare. I'm not little though, and if you don't shut the fuck up then I'm going to punch you in the face one of these days. Seriously, it's really loud. I know you wouldn't know that when you laugh the whole room goes quiet, because you're too loud to hear the world around you. Grow up, and take the blue/green streak of color out of your hair.

4. I hate you. Rape isn't funny so don't laugh. I don't even care if you're fucking drunk, because there is no excuse.

5. You've screwed my sleeping habits. There are three things now that I have to have before I can sleep. One is Against Me! playing over the speakers, two is the Against Me! jacket I've come to know and love (and ridicule), and three is this little ball of light that really has nothing to do with you. You've changed me in so many ways even I'm unaware of all of them. I love our rediculous conversations about nothing, and all the adventures we have pretty much rock, but there are just some things I wish you wouldn't do. It's called perseverance.

6. I'm seventeen now, and I thought I'd never make it. Thanks for always having faith in my abilities, when no one else did. You'll never see that I'm gonna make it because of what you said to me. I'm gonna graduate, and I'm gonna get to college and I'm gonna do well. You were the best, and I'm sorry I let you down. But all I can do now is prove that you were right.

7. Long nights spent talking to you never make up for not being with you. I wish I lived closer, but changing the past alters the present, and I'm really glad I know you.

8. You were my best friend for so long, so what happened? When I went to high school everything changed and suddenly I wasn't cool enough for you. Well you know what? I really don't like your band that much, and your friend has ugly hair. But in a way you're still my surrogate little brother and all the years as friends still cause me to worry about you and defend your name when my parents badmouth you. You're gonna be something one day, I know, but I just don't know what, or when. All I can say is, stay in school and go to college, and it will all work out for the best.




I couldn't come up with 10. These are supposed to be angry letters too I found out. Oh well, I just don't have 10 people to be angry at.



Puppies and Teddybears,
Kristine

Dead Gofers and anarchists.

There were two good stories I heard today:

One was from chad, and it was about my dad and his stepdad eric. So they were down in the hell hole this weekend and my dad caught a gofer and suggested they suffocate it, so they put it in a garbage bag and then eric decided to smash it against the side of the house over and over again until it died.
So now i can nver go back to that house because of the ghost of the gofer that was murdered there.

The other story was from Justen. Justen's story is a bit funnier and a bit less gory. So justen has this friend Andy who apparently is a total anarchist. Like, completely. Don't ask for details on him cause I have none. But anyway, so he and justen have been working on an anarchist flag that they apparently finished this morning. So theymounted it on a stick and then strapped on helmets and justen got some gloves and andy a skateboard and they went to the highest hill they could find, and then rolled right down the middle of it waving the flag. Not down the sidewalk, but right down the street. So I can just imagine it. You're stopped at a red light and all the sudden you see this blob of wheelchair and two heads and a flag whizzing by you. The best part is that he said they went right by the police station and didnt get caught. Of course, nobody ever watches the police station. Cause its got cops. But yeah.


Oh people. You're so funny sometimes.

Love,
me.

Problems with everything...

I didn't do anything and somehow I'm in trouble. Not with my parents, but with Justen. I really didn't do anything and he's blaming me for shit I couldn't have possibly been around to do. Fuck. Fucking fucking fucking cancer. Ugh.

Believe me, you never want to watch someone begin to go downhill. It's the saddest fucking thing in the whole world. Until then, you don't know hell.

I'm listening to this old song I haven't heard in years, since the first person I claimed to have fallen in love with showed it to me. It's totally not what I'd enjoy at all; it's Last Dance WIth Mary Jane by Tom Petty. I have no idea why I like it. But for some reason I do. It's got parts that I like I guess. It just reminds me of good times and bad times and uh.. I don't know. It doesn't even relate to right now.

I need some fucking chocolate or something.



Just like smiles are contagious, so too is depression.

xoxo.

"I said hey and he turned around and fingered me."

Says Jackson. I guess he meant to say "he flipped me off" but it came out a little different. Oh well. That's just one reason that freshmen are so fucking funny sometimes.
Chad, Jackson and I were at the football game, and it was Middle School Night. Middle School Night is the dumbest fucking invention on the face of the fucking earth. I swear to god. In case you don't know, Middle School Night is when all the middle school kids are invited to come to the game. But they don't pay attention to the game. All they do is fight with eachother and run around and talk about stupid shit. And the worst part is that they're already so corrupt. All the girls are whores and sluts, and all the boys are pricks who call eachother faggot and other racial slurs (I'm aware that faggot isnt a racial slur but you get the point)
AND THEYRE FUCKING DUMB SHIT.
Obviously if you run into me or my passive freshman, I'm going to push you. So don't get mad. Just walk away and accept your mistake okay?
Also,
It's like 50 degrees there. So don't wear a mini-skirt that shows your ass and then complain its cold. Just dont. Because I'll push you too.

It was raining earlier, and now there is this drip drip sound that sounds like its coming from right above my bed in the attic. Which it probably is.
Fucking faulty roof.

Fuck. I hate gushing. I don't think that I get all moody and stuff, but then every once in a while I'll do something and realize it. Like, I told jacob i loved him and then a minute later he asked if i loved him, and i said "ugh. yes i just said so" and now I feel bad....
Ummm
Sorry?

Are you allowed to apologize via blog?
Idk.


Goodnight.
My conscience is all fucked up now.
I really am sorry.

Lock the door to your room...

I'm thinking about how I should be sleeping now, but instead I'm sitting and writing pointless stuff. I don't really have that much to say, except that I wanna go to venice this weekend, and I want to take Jackson with me since he says he hates it there, and that he hates homeless people. I know homeless people are a little scary SOMETIMES, but not like scary enough that you need to be deathly afraid of them. I mean, come on, theyre homeless. They can't be in that good of shape. Some of them don't eat much, and they've got all their stuff theyre not going to abandon, so theyre not going to chase you...
Unless theyre an active and fit hobo. In which case Jackson is screwed.

Anyway.

I love you guys.

And I've decided that I'm not quite ready to grow up just yet.

I found out the other day that I went to a pyschologist when I was going into preschool, and I went to be analized to see if I was ready for preschool. He said that I was academically ready, but I was at the lowest of the social level to be recomended to go to preschool. Which is why I still act like a little kid. So what if I had waited a year? Would I be even smarter and would I be in AP's and Honors classes? Would I be going to a 4 year instead of a JC first?

Also with that, the pyschologist said that he's got this theory that babies who are post-term (late babies) get a buildup of testosterone and that makes them have more male-ish traits. So then he said that I tend to learn like guys do. And why I'm still a tomboy. Because I was two weeks overdue. But that's just his theory...

Oh well.

Can't change it now.

More stuff

Two things today:

a) I got spotlight for Assassins with Jackson, my freshman. We're gonna rock it. So, when you come see it, look for us. We're going to be awesome, us Spot-buddies.

b) I don't cry about things. So then why today did I? For no reason. I was in photography and then Mr. Gilman handed me keys to unlock the blackoutroom door and said jokingly "lets get it right today" because yesterday i couldnt get the door opened. And
i dunno. 242 days without crying. And then.
bam
for no reason.

God. I feel fucking stupid.

Updates...

I Love:

Jacob
and
Justen

because they read this....
(along with some other people apparently)


I only have one thing to say:
I wish you people wouldn't drink. Serioulsy. Even when I'm not around. It really pisses me off for some reason. Don't be a hypocrite and not do it around me, but then casually do it when I'm gone. Fuck. I hate it. Fuck you shitty bitches.



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